I know it's a little blurry but the photo above is a side view or profile shot of Owen putting his thumb to his mouth. The image to the left of his hand is umbilical cord;-)
This is a profile (side view) of Owen's Head/face and chest, the blob at the top is the placenta for inquiring minds:-)
Psalm 139:13,14
For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
I had to read all of the previous verses just to write this update to remind myself of what I TRULY believe...
I believe I just need to trust in God. (Proverbs 3:5,6)
I believe I need to rejoice in the Lord and present my requests to him. (Philippians 4:4-7)
I believe I can do all things with the strength of the Lord. (Philippians 4:13)
I believe that God is the creator of both GOOD and BAD times and we should praise Him for both. (Ecclesiastes 7:14)
I believe I must have hope in the Lord and He will help me and renew my strength. (Isaiah 40:28-31)
And I believe that facing trials will develop in me perseverance. (James 1:2-3)
With all these truths...I still write today with heavy heart and a need to JUST rest in the Lord.
Today's visit included just an ultrasound and consultation with the perinatalogist. It was evident as the tech was doing measurements, that while Owen has grown about 2 weeks of growth in 2 weeks (good of course), that there are concerns now beyond just his small size (his size is approximately 1 pound 14 oz, whereas he should be around 2 pounds 4 oz). The amnio results were not back (and are expected to take even up to a week MORE) but the specialist now does believe that Owen has a form of Skeletal Dysplasia (Dwarfism) that is not a "common type" and she is having us come back as soon as a geneticist can be lined up to be present at another ultrasound to attempt to diagnose Owen's condition (no guarantees a diagnosis can be made).
I struggle with giving too many details and confusing/concerning you all, so I'll try to explain what I do know. The specific concerns are his chest circumference (size is less than the 2.5%) is very small (and once born not good for lung capacity/being able to breathe on your own). In addition, the shape of his head and the circumference seem to have worsened (hard to simplify what this means exactly).
I don't even know what all this means. I don't want to give up hope that Owen will be a healthy baby, regardless of the body that God gives him, but with that, I want to be realistic and prepared as much as I can be.
I will have to update again as soon as I know the next appt date. I also wanted to share that my "very light activity" is going ok, but after 8 weeks, I'm just too tired to do much of anything (physically) so it's not hard to still take it easy. I am still "officially" on bedrest, the difference is I can now just sit up some instead of constant sidelying positions and I can get up and wipe the counter off if it needs it or put my own messes away instead of having servant type service where I literally only got up to go to the bathroom, microwave food, or shower. So, it's better but still bedrest.
I am very thankful to hit an important gestational milestone in pregnancy, 28 weeks. I am thankful to feel the SO strong movements of this precious baby that grows inside me. I am thankful for my loving, serving husband and my beautiful healthy boys that I am so very blessed with. I am thankful for my health. And I am thankful for my salvation~I don't know how so many people in this world go through life without a Savior and hope for eternal life in Heaven. I pray if you are reading this that you have the same saving Faith in the Lord, but if you don't~you CAN!!! Please ask me about it!
1 comments:
renay my heart aches for you, but your faith in God in good and bad, is so encouraging, and i hope that i am as strong of a woman as you in the mist of my trials. thank you so much for starting your blog and reminding me and im sure many others, with your updates, how great God really is!
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