Wednesday, April 08, 2009

Update from the edge...

...the edge of sanity, that is.

Yesterday was fine. Most of today was fine as well...then I went back to the at this point dreaded medical office where I receive prenatal care. So, the highlights were that Griffin's heart rate is still dropping (called a decel) from time to time but I am being told "it's nothing to worry about" *read here do you even know me to ask me not to worry*. My fluid dropped from 25 to 17, but I'm not supposed to find concern there either. Oh and the big iciing on the cake news: Griffin is breech again. Now wonder contractions 3 minutes apart aren't doing pressure on your cervix makes it harder to dilate.

I was scheduled for a c-section on April 28th at 9am.

I am to go into this fine medical establishment *read hell on earth* twice a week until I deliver...oh joy. If anyone has some extra padding (for my walls) or straight jackets lying around, I could use them ASAP.

I am sliding down a slippery slope of being blessed to be still pregnant to fearing that one of these times the decels that are "ok" will be past "ok"...I'm quite distraught over it.

I know this is a downer post...but in my defense, I left out a lot of worse downer junk and just thought I should update everyone on the current plan (which is likely a waste of thinking through).

If I don't post again this week, I hope everyone has a very blessed Easter.


Lora said...

Renay, I'm praying everything stays stable these next 20 days! PS Where was the picture of the three boys by the water taken? It kinda looks like it could be the beach right in my hometown.

amy f. said...

Oh...try to stay positive and sane. I really think everything is going to be okay. Try to trust your doctor, but if your gut is telling you different at some point...go with your gut.

Will I maybe run into you at Elston tonight? If I see you, I'll try not to actually "charge" you though :-)

Thinking of and praying for you and Griffin.

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